As one way to keep tabs on President Donald Trump's state of mind, I'm on his email fundraising lists. Lately his 79-year-old mind has seemed to be on his mortality.

"I want to try and get to heaven" has been the subject line on roughly a half-dozen Trump emails since mid-August. Oddly, one arrived earlier this month on the same day that the commander in chief separately posted on social media a meme of himself as "Apocalypse Now" character Lt. Col. Bill Kilgore, satisfyingly surveying the hellish conflagration that his helicopters had wreaked, not on Vietnam but on Chicago. "Chipocalypse" was Trump's warning to the next U.S. city that he might militarize.

Mixed messages, to be sure.

The president hasn't limited his celestial contemplations to online outlets. "I want to try and get to heaven, if possible," he told the hosts of "Fox & Friends" in August, by way of explaining his (failed) effort to bring peace to Ukraine. "I'm hearing I'm not doing well."

Well, Mr. President, here's some advice: I don't think you'll get to heaven by wishing that many of your fellow citizens go to hell.

The disconnect between Trump's dreams of eternal reward and his earthly avenging — against Democrat-run cities, political rivals, late-show hosts and other celebrity critics, universities, law firms, cultural institutions, TV networks and newspapers, liberal groups and donors, government employees, insufficiently loyal allies and even harmless protesters at a Washington restaurant — was rarely so evident as it was at the Christian revival that was Sunday's memorial for the slain MAGA activist Charlie Kirk at State Farm Stadium in Glendale, Ariz.

Mere minutes after Erika Kirk, Kirk's widow and successor as head of the conservative group Turning Point USA, had tearfully forgiven her husband's accused killer, the president explicitly contradicted her with a message of hate toward his own enemies, and his continued determination to exact revenge.

Erika Kirk spoke of "Charlie's mission" of engaging his critics and working "to save young men just like the one who took his life." She recalled the crucified Christ absolving his executioners on Calvary, then emotionally added: "That young man. I forgive him."

"I forgive him because it was what Christ did and what Charlie would do," she said to applause. "The answer to hate is not hate. The answer, we know from the Gospel, is love and always love. Love for our enemies and love for those who persecute us."

Then it was Trump's turn.

Just one minute in, he called the 22-year-old suspect "a radicalized cold-blooded monster." And throughout, despite investigators' belief that the man acted alone, Trump reiterated for the umpteenth time since Kirk's death that "radical left lunatics" — his phrase for Democrats — actually were responsible and that the Justice Department would round up those complicit for retribution.

Trump acknowledged that Charlie Kirk probably wouldn't agree with his approach: "He did not hate his opponents. He wanted the best for them." Then Teleprompter Trump went off script, reverting to real Trump and ad-libbing: "That's where I disagreed with Charlie. I hate my opponent and I don't want the best for them." He spat the word "hate" with venom. And he got applause, just as Erika Kirk had for a very different message.

Jesus counseled "turn the other cheek" to rebuke those who harm us. Trump boasts that he always punches back. "If someone screws you, screw them back 10 times harder," he once said. Love your enemies, as Christ commanded in his Sermon on the Mount? Nah. You heard Trump in Arizona: "I hate my opponent."

Trump might have some explaining to do when he seeks admittance at the pearly gates.

The Bible's words aside, a president is supposed to be the comforter in chief after a tragedy and a uniter when divisions rend the American fabric. Think of President Clinton, whose oratory bridged partisan fissures after antigovernment domestic terrorists bombed a federal building in Oklahoma City in 1995, killing 168 people, and of President George W. Bush, who visited a mosque in Washington after the Sept. 11, 2001, terrorist attacks, in a healing gesture intended to blunt rising anti-Muslim reactions. (Later, of course, Bush would cleave the nation by invading Iraq based on a lie about its complicity.)

Trump, by contrast, is the inciter in chief. Just hours after Kirk's death on Sept. 10, and before a suspect was in custody, he addressed the nation, blaming "radical left political violence." He has repeated that indictment nearly every day since, though the FBI has reported for years — including during his first term — that domestic right-wing violence is the greater threat. "We have to beat the hell out of them," Trump told reporters. When even one of his friends on "Fox & Friends" noted radicals are on the right as well, Trump replied: "I couldn't care less. … The radicals on the left are the problem, and they're vicious and they're horrible."

All of this vituperation and vengeance suggests a big "what if": What if Trump were more like Charlie Kirk? To ask is not to gloss over Kirk's controversial utterances against Black Americans, gay and transgender Americans and others, but he did respectfully deal with those who disagreed with him — as he was doing when he was shot.

What if Trump, since 2016, had sincerely tried to broaden his political reach, as presidential nominees and presidents of each party historically did, to embrace his opponents and to compromise with them? What if he governed for all Americans and not just his MAGA voters? He might well have enacted bipartisan laws of the sort that Trump 1.0 promised on immigration, gun safety, infrastructure and more. In general we'd all be better off, less polarized.

And with a more magnanimous approach like that, Trump just might have a better chance at getting into heaven.

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